Things are changed now...

Out of all the things
That you never knew
I want you to know
I do love you

To you I never tell
What you mean to me
Now you are a distant star
Whom I can just see

I hide all my tears
And every time I lie, Still
This is forever
I love you and I always will

You were someone special
And you will always be
Although things are changed now
May be you but not me

I saw an angel falling down
And reached for help
I prayed to God
So that he can heal

I just don't know
Where I went wrong
When did he learn to hurt me
Over the phase of time

Cos I love to cry...

I wonder if people can't get it
I am sure they pretend not to know me
Not their fault
Cos am strange
And that, I love to cry

I care for my dearest ones
I never let them be sad
I pray for them so hard
You know why ?
Cos I love to cry

I help in healing
I tell them to have faith
I let them hurt me again
Don't know why I feel like to
But I love to cry

I dream of a smile
And work hard for it
I wait for happiness
And it disappears every time
Can you get a single reason
Why only I have to cry

To love is not a crime
Keeping it to you is not wrong
Caring for someone had never been so mean
Still what makes people feel
To hurt me all the time
And then they say,
" She loves to cry "

The only one who cried was me...

Why do I have to
Pretend all the time
Of being someone
That is not me
I have to lie all the time
For someone not mine
I am hurt
And now that am shattered
Instead of being with me
Everyone is walking away
I never say
All that I feel
So lonely I am
Now where do I run
You can’t realize
You think I love to cry for past
But I don’t want to move on
That remained to my own ground
You thought I need sympathy
But you never cared enough to know
My only cause of pain was you
You thought am pretending
No, that I am doing now
Still one thing that you never knew
I never tried to come in your ways
It is you who blamed me again and again
May be you wanted to hurt me more
That is why you said those words
Now I fear to make friends
Hope they don’t turn out to be you
I fear of falling in love again
But I swear that is not your fault
My heart has thousand questions
I wonder why can’t you feel it
Am not asking you to come back
At least don’t hurt me
There was a promise made
Of never letting me hurt by anyone, ever
Whom should I complain to
You know whom am I pointing to
I feel like to cry
How long will I be able to hide
I still love you
The only one who never understood me
If not my love, my friendship at least
Everything I did
Went wrong somehow
All my care
Is a burden to you now
Did I ever ask you
To return my care
Did I ever ask you
To know what went wrong
I just wanted to heal
But you can’t let me be happy
In my pain I don’t invite everyone
I keep it to me
To those who know me so well
Half of the things are still unknown
They know I fell in love with you
And that is the reason am crying
For some who know me more than I do
Have realized the real of you
Out of many things
You could have said
I wonder why did you say that
If my care was meant to be returned
Then what is friendship made up of
You saw a girl’s love for you
But never realized
A friend’s heart
Even when I knew
You will never be mine
I did not stop to care
I tried to keep everything with me
And you taunted with half of the things
I wish you could see
You did hurt a healing one
I wish you could realize
My feelings were not spread to the world
Whatever I wrote
Remained to three of you
Hope you realize it someday
What you see is not always true
I still wonder
What is it that did hurt you
The only one who cried was me

Lovelorn
Vini